Original text or pictures from anotherdayyay.blogspot.com
may not be used without permission.

Friday, March 30, 2012


Never thought I'd make it, but on the other side of the most difficult time of my life has been the most amazing! I have felt every emotion a human being can possibly feel in the last 5 days.

but most of all...

I'm amazed.

Can you believe what God can do? Can you really fathom the extent of his power? With the birth of Marielle and Genevieve, I have a new appreciation for the miraculous ability of God. There are so many things I want to share about this time, but this post is simply going to focus on those moments in which I've been amazed by Him. (no worries, all the chaotic details of having twins are soon to come!)

I'm amazed at God's love that so clearly shines through when Rick interacts with his daughters.

I am amazed at the confidence God has given me to handle the stress of having twins. We're taking it day by day and I can do this!

I'm amazed at the amount of love one person can have inside.

I'm amazed at how two college kids who met at a house party on East Maxwell ended up kissing their twin daughters 13 years later...Oh the plans He has...

I'm amazed at how Gabriella, at only the age of 2, can already show such devotion and compassion to her little sisters.


These next few days are going to be crazy. Last night was our first night home and we didn't go to bed until 5:00! But even as everyone in my little family is fast asleep now and I'm one-arm holding a twin (can't tell if she's Marielle or Genevieve!) that needs constant rocking, which isn't easy with a foot-long scar...
I'm amazed.

and tired...

Hope you can find the amazing today.



Saturday, March 17, 2012

Still Waiting...

After an unexpected week in the hospital, I will be starting my third week of at-home bedrest on Monday. Apparently, I'm the poster child for bedrest because the same pregnant mommy of twins who was just huffing and puffing with the most horrific contractions a few weeks ago is now sealed up like Fort Knox. Who knew you could go backwards in your progress? Seems like the closer I get, the more my body makes an effort to keep these babies in. Maybe it's the power of my subconscious because, secretly, nothing about any type of labor excites me right now. It's been decided that I will have a C-section because Genevieve is now breech. Although the memories of my first labor and delivery with GG make me almost cry at the thought of a natural birth, I'm really afraid of a C-section, too. Many of the women around me have raved about their C-sections and the recovery. No one has shared a horror story to incite my fear. It's just plain and simple: I don't want to have the surgery because I'm scared. I'm also scared to push these girls out the good ol' fashion way. AND I'm currently incredibly miserable. So, we do have quite the predicament, don't we?

I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of August. Almost immediately, the trials that were going to come along with this twin pregnancy began. According to my calculations, for the past 225 days, I have either thrown up, cried, or worried myself awake, or all three. These days, when I have to stick my leg up in the air and swing it down to give myself the momentum I need to hoist myself out of bed, it's easy to get frustrated or feel defeated. Some women are blessed to have difficult-free pregnancies. Their bodies welcome the changes and pregnancy is bliss. My body...not so much. As I make it into my 37th week of pregnancy (which is apparently a huge feat for a multiples pregnancy) I'm starting to wonder if I will be the first mother of multiples (or mother period) who has a longer gestation than 40 weeks? Will I still be pregnant this time next year?! Will I ever get to meet these babies? I only have one week and one day until the scheduled C-section, but that seems like forever in my current condition. Hmmm....

As I read back over what I've written so far in this post I'm disappointed. I really didn't want to seem so negative. I kind of want to just backspace the whole thing, but I don't think I will. My blog has kind of been like a diary and, one day, I think I will want to remember what I was thinking in these final days when I was still waiting. So, here is something positive I can say:

Without a doubt, unequivocally, I would go through every single day of this pregnancy again because no amount of pain or sickness or worry can come close to rivaling the joy and love I will feel when I get to hold Marielle and Genevieve for the first time. Their little fingers and toes and noses and ears and splotchy red skin and cries...
I know that what I'm going to experience is ten times better than what I can imagine in this moment.

Until then, I'm still waiting...